I don't intend to be poetic,but I know this post sounds like one.I am trying very hard to write,but the train of thought, just vanishes in between.For those who are sadists,a piece of good news.Yes,the sabbatical is over.Like a fantastic meal,it ended with a creamy, dreamy unadulterated vacation to the land of "bigger,better,faster,cleaner..... ".
It's difficult to describe my present state......I don't blame myself.
croggy....lethargic...lazy....tired....restless
the state is difficult to understand and even more difficult to describe...
SPOILT is perhaps a more appropriate word....
i hoped and wished like hell in the beginning that,it was jet lag....but it was and yet it wasn't....
Probably,i am suffering from an enormous overdose of love,vacation,food,nature,fresh air,sleep,an over enormous state of nothing to do and lots to see.....trying to grab more than I can retain....bite more than i can chew.....like a greedy child unleashed on a pile of chocolates....(i din eat many...O.K ate some...only !!!)....Damn...it's difficult to recollect sometimes....was it a dream....I can't connect and put it together....just fragments......the fragments of a dream....a long long one where reality merges with the surreal like a fairy tale.....without the demons and goblins and the witches....
life never seemed so pure and romantic.....
BUT....
Reality returns,bites,kicks and punches you, where it hurts the most.....
the bumpy auto rides...the "get up and go to work"feeling....the pollution...the empty house....the endless,mindless staffroom laughter,the innocent faces of 8 yr olds,pulling at your sari (and your heart strings)to gain attention....the dreaded school bell signalling the end of the cherished 15 mins of hasty lunch(a potpourri of four dabbas)......that's reality....and it's growing on me....surprisingly...fast.....the transition is so sudden that i have surprised myself too.
wasn't I just standing, watching the grand canyon, just yesterday.....
Well !!!that was yesterday....and this is today !!!!
It's difficult to describe my present state......I don't blame myself.
croggy....lethargic...lazy....tired....restless
the state is difficult to understand and even more difficult to describe...
SPOILT is perhaps a more appropriate word....
i hoped and wished like hell in the beginning that,it was jet lag....but it was and yet it wasn't....
Probably,i am suffering from an enormous overdose of love,vacation,food,nature,fresh air,sleep,an over enormous state of nothing to do and lots to see.....trying to grab more than I can retain....bite more than i can chew.....like a greedy child unleashed on a pile of chocolates....(i din eat many...O.K ate some...only !!!)....Damn...it's difficult to recollect sometimes....was it a dream....I can't connect and put it together....just fragments......the fragments of a dream....a long long one where reality merges with the surreal like a fairy tale.....without the demons and goblins and the witches....life never seemed so pure and romantic.....
BUT....
Reality returns,bites,kicks and punches you, where it hurts the most.....
the bumpy auto rides...the "get up and go to work"feeling....the pollution...the empty house....the endless,mindless staffroom laughter,the innocent faces of 8 yr olds,pulling at your sari (and your heart strings)to gain attention....the dreaded school bell signalling the end of the cherished 15 mins of hasty lunch(a potpourri of four dabbas)......that's reality....and it's growing on me....surprisingly...fast.....the transition is so sudden that i have surprised myself too.
wasn't I just standing, watching the grand canyon, just yesterday.....
Well !!!that was yesterday....and this is today !!!!
some more pics here
20 comments:
hey u've been missed....:D
those were some great snaps too...
so how's the new school? and u just reminded me, its almost time for me to be getting back...:(
u sound like you are on drugs.it must feel heavenly being on drugs.
welcome bak
glad to see u posting :-) was waiting for ur trip log...
one day u where standing and enjoying the GC and next day, u r bang in the middle of bangy traffic...
that is sure a jolting change...
did u say 15 minute lunch? dose that means students also get only 115 minutes for lunch? :(
hey.. you joined back.. ? which school ? you still in bangalore right ?
heyy Missed you for a month,
WElcome to Bengaluru.... traffic, pollution,chaos..... but also the land of kapi, dosas... n Much more!!
School bell, kids , chaos.... staff room laughter reminds me of VVS :-))
cheers
padma
@suma
still trying to grapple with a lot of people and things...at school.It feels great to be back.
@satish
now i know what it feels like.....
@xh
the kids get 10 .believe me...it's great to be a teacher....
@veena
yes..i'm back
@padma
so true...and can't give it up..neither the kapi nor images of vvs.
welcome back...u been missed...
neat!!!
very very nice!
hehe, been a long time since i had a vacation, so i am actually silently smiling at this post and your tryst with reality :P
welcome back, my dear friend - hope u had a great time :)
hey--this is EXACTLY what I'm going through right now!U described it so well!
I Hate the aftermath of a good vacation!
hey look who's back in the blogworld! C'mon you as a teacher is cribbing to go back to school. Imagine what a student undergoes :) :)
GrandCanyon is awesome, isn't it?
@tys...
thanks...i missed it too
@mansi
thanks a lot for dropping by the blog.
@dharmabum
i did...
@ps
am so relieved to hear that !!!
@joy
awww comeon students have all the fun,at the expense of the teachers.
Hey Gazal!
New to your blog..
This was one neat post.
Hows it being a teacher,btw? :D
Do be a guest at my online abode soon
*cheers*
Welcome back and well put - that end of vacation feeling is difficult to articulate :). I hope you'll put up a holiday log with pictures for those of us who haven't been anywhere near the Grand Canyon. Look forward to that.
Good one!
hey very nice pics .. btw, do lazy and restles go together?
hey...
I am on a long vacation from my vocation( nearly for 2year). After reading your blog I was just wondering how am I going to go back to the school bell,lesson plans staffroom gup-shup all the ups and downs of teaching and learning stuffs.
@aayushi
thanks.i will.i will
@madhu
hey.check the photoblog
@mansa
thanks
@shruti
it does.weird but it does.
@june
it doesnt take more than a day to get addicted to the staffroom gupshup...believe me
im stil alive ....heh
i know what u mean, comin back from vacation is always terrible...
glad to hear ur back in school :)...
ah, the jetlag of a beautiful vacation! :) you described it so well.. but coming to think of it, one sometimes gets all too entangled in these kinda jetlags all the time, right? nostalgia n all that.. i'm currently going thru a similar phase.. jetlag of some bittersweet twilight moments.. and the post made a lot of sense to me.
Thanks for stopping by at my blog, gazal! :) I'm glad to find yours! and hey, you teach kids? that's awesome!! :)
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